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Name: Jaden
Location: Ireland
Birthday: 9/7/1985
Gender: Female


Interests: Acting, Education, Rennies, Magick, Music, Dancing
Expertise: I act, I sing, I dance, I attempt to write, I'm a pagen....I can't think of much else!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment


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MSN: Jaden_McKenna@yahoo.com


Member Since: 8/6/2004

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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Currently Playing
Home [Import CD #2]
By Michael Bublé
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Yay for poetry!!!

Longing

Late at night
When I can not sleep
I lay awake and wonder
What's to become of this?

Is this a dream
As it seems to be
Or is there substance
To these feelings I have

I'm full of joy
Like none I've felt
It's good to smile again
A pressence long absent

But are you friend
Or something more
I want to believe
But something sways me

I long to hear your voice again
To end my day with you
To tell you that I need you
And hear you love me too.

 

You Don't See Me

I stand alone
My back to the world
Hair of fire red
Eyes of emerald green
But you don't see me

Wings of feathers
Black as the Raven
Skin that shines
Like a coin of bronze
But you don't see me

A crystal bow apon my back
Onyx sword within my belt
Voice of an Angel
Heart of something dark
But you don't see me

Tall as a man
Body completly feminine
A flowing gown of white
Corset of mossy green
But you don't see me

I am your salvation
I am your damnation
Old as time it's self
I look into your eyes
But you don't see me

 

In Late Hours

In the late hours of the night
   the world begins to change
The veil between realms
   becomes sheer and thin
To thouse that knows how to see
   a myarid of existance appears
People that are long sence gone
   and creatures thought only legend
They roam around and show themselves
   to thouse that know where to look
So open your mind
   and open your heart
'Cause in the late hours of the night
   the world begins to change 

 

To a Soldier

Gone are the times of innocent folly
Around life's next bend we draw neigh
Riding the wind of hopes and dreams
Yearning to know what's ahead

Strangers we are to ourselves
Even as we feigh understanding
Another light shines to bring us home
Never allowing us to wander far

Gather our wits about us
Rally our strength to continue on
Every step becomes easier than the last
Growing now is our sence of self
Only now to reveal  ourself to the world
Render our true heart to the one who holds it
Yeilding to their loving hands

 

Come Home

Many a night I've sat alone
Sitting beside a silent phone
Waiting to hear your voice so sweet
Just praying for my heart to beat

Come home to me
Stand beside me in the rain
Come home to me
And wash away my pain

 

Proclamation

I try to sleep
sleep won't come
Staring at the celing
I feel so numb
My mind wanders
thoughts of you are bittersweet
Both joy and pain
fill my heart's ever beat

 

Never Really Left

I long to feel his arms again
so strong and comforting
I die to feel his breath again
to graze my cheek at night

So long I've been waiting without him
but he never really left

He dwells within my dreams
my memories recall his smile
My skin strains to remember his touch
my lips yern to taste his again

So long I've been without him
but he never really left

 

 A Late Night Scream

I pour out my heart to you
you ask me why I feel

I call to your heart
but it's hidden in shadow

I crave your pressence
yet your so far away

I long for your love
yet you hide it from yourself

I wish to know your mind
why do you hold back your feelings

When will I know you
do you even know yourself

 

Cry to the Moon

To hear your voice
it makes me soar
I hear your pain
and I die inside

I wish I could help you
but I know there's nothing I can change
I wish I could hold you
but your so far away

I'm caught in a limbo
so loved yet so alone
I know love is there
but miles keep the feelings at bay

How long can I keep this up
so in love with so much doubt
Untill the day when you return
I pray that you'll still want me

 

In the Darkness

In the darkness I call your name
I'm crying out but you can't hear me scream
In the night I see your face
I hear you scream
I feel your pain
I can feel and I can hear
But there's nothing I can do about either
That's what makes me scream
That's why I cry

 


Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Why do we pain ourselves.... By calling a phone you know won't pick up.... Having the desire to talk to someone you know will only make you cry...... To continue to read about a person when the words only make the pain cut deeper..... Why do I do this to myself. I don't understand. But no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try and how much I try to forget I still feel scared, empty and all alone. I need a way out..... I need to get away. But where do I go? I feel so lost. My nights are filled with self doubt and tears, my days with worry and lonliness. No matter what I do nothing seems to get better. With every turn another door is shut in my face. I know I can't give up...... but that's the one thing I want so bad....just to give up!

~The Jaded One~


Monday, January 24, 2005

Sing to Me

You sing to me your silent melody
you whisper a distant rhyme
you strum a hidden pain
the song of your soul, lost in your mind

You tell of an unknown weakness
your heart beats a rythem of sarrow
your eyes betray your strength
your scars call to the story of tomarrow

You are my mystery
my riddle to unwind
yet your not so diffrent
we share the same mind

I'm with you when you are alone
I know why you cry
I feel it when you hurt
we're both telling the same lie

So sing aloud your melody
tell to me your rhyme
we'll strum away your pain
the stories or your soul, and of mine.

 

We Let Go

Whats left when childish games are over?
we move on
we let go

What is there when the thrill of High School has faded?
we become drones
we let go

What happens when first love fails?
we are jaded
we let go

What happens when the bonds of home are broken?
we move out
we let go

What happens when we are pulled from friendship?
we grow cold
we let go

What happens when we attain true love?
our heart sings
we let go

What happens when the world finnaly makes sence?
our soul rejoyces
we let go


Friday, January 07, 2005

 

Good Luck Bear
Lucky you! You are one lucky person. You are not one to worry much about anything, trusting that everything will turn out great on its own. You also realize that you must risk things in life to gain happiness. However, your implusiveness gets you into trouble once in awhile. You spread your good luck to others with encouraging words that help others believe in themselves.

 

Sorry I couldn't help myself...I jumped up and down.....I'm a dork and I'm very ok with that!!!!! hehehehe!!! I got Good Luck bear!!!! Take that!!!


Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Currently Playing
Atmospheres: Scottish Celtic Bagpipes
By Various Artists
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I have a new favorite thing! Random acts of chilvary! I sapose that is the best way to describe it. With my last post I admit I may have been in a foul temperment...but a kind soul made a random stop to part the storm clouds and shine light into mind once again. This made me smile....a very pure and innocent smile. A smile that won back my faith in humanity as a whole. There is kindness and compassion in this world. Those are two attributes that I thought had died along with the chilvrious knights of old. Thank you Drew, you can not fully understand what your kind words mean to me. I hope that you grow to be a dear friend....I look forward to seeing you on campus next fall. Keep in touch.

Standing in new light
~The Jaded One~



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